FUCKYOUMARGARETIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOU
I ate sprinkles today. A whole goddamn bowl of sprinkles.
I haven't eaten enough to purge, but I can't eat more.
I don't know what to do. I'm drowning in my fat and fear...
I was fasting too! I was doing well!
God, I am such a fuckup.
Fast restarts in
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You won't eat again until Saturday at breakfast.
UGHFATASSFATASSFATASSFATASS
I'm so so lost right now. I really am. I'm nothing more than some crazy little thing wandering aimlessly through the vast white world I'm lost in.
Walking later. I hope to burn some good calories.
your not fat!! your thin & fragile and perfect :)
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i'm sorry to say but it's really funny that you ate a bowl of sprinkles! can you step back and appreciate that? please? it's like eating a bowl of mustard and it's amazing and hilarious. oh dear, we eat such weird things sometimes, don't we?
ReplyDeleteplease don't think i'm trying to devalue the severity of your eating a bowl of sprinkles. if i had sprinkles i would probably eat a bowlful and then cry a lot too. i'm just saying it's funny.
also please note!! any time you eat so little of something that you can't purge, IT'S OK. IT WILL NOT MAKE YOU FAT. i don't care what it is, if you haven't eaten enough to throw up, you don't need to worry. ok?
i know you're a little wandering aimless thing in the huge white world and it's scary-as-fuck and i know that because that is what i feel like too. i want to curl up in a ball and cover myself in blankets and hibernate and eat squishy things (i am thinking marshmallows and creme puffs) and do nothing for 8 months. but i have 15,000 things to do and i am fighting a losing battle and this just will not do. and you'd think at least i could not eat and get thin, but NO.
anyway you are tiny and beautiful and i wish for you that you could find yourself again or at least wander purposefully. make some good art, ok? then at least you will have that.
LOVE xxoxox
also what happened to trying to take care of ourselves a little bit? we are still trying, right?
ReplyDeleteeating some will help with the feeling lost bit - at least after a while. do not worry about the sprinkles. they are just whipped sugar anyway.
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Awww, that's so darling that when you eat something, and you're gonna beat yourself up about it, it's going to be - sprinkles! Ha. You're a little bit cute, has anyone ever told you that? Sprinkles.
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