I'm really on the verge of having a panic attack. I feel terrible from eating. Food makes me physically ill. But I want more. I want more. My appetite is comepletely insatiable. But I can't have more. My mind is screaming, and so is my stomach and it's this terrible dissonance thats about to rip my eardrums apart and make my heart explode.
I'm shaking all over and I want to crycrycry but I can't because one can always tell I've been crying for the next three hours and I have stuff to do.
I just want to curl up and hibernate forever. If I do that I'll never eat again.
I want to eat. I don't want to eat. I want to eat the whole fucking world. I don't want to eat the whole fucking world.
I've already gained three pounds. It's probably food weight.
Love you always,