I had a terrible food day. I disgust myself. No control; no discipline.
I'm utterly pathetic, and will never, ever be good enough. Ever.
I want to fix it, this broken up mess that has become my life, but I can't.
I want to be thin.
I want my family to work again.
I want to be loved.
I want to be a good student.
I want to be a good artist.
But none of that will ever happen. I'm just not good enough.
And I never will be good enough.
Love you always (hate me always)