the thoughts and whims of a little girl whose only wish was to shrink
if happy was a long time ago, then make a new happy. be happy, smile even when you dont feel like smiling, it sounds stupid but it works!put a pen/pencil in your mouth when you feel down and it forces your mouth into a fake smile, releasing hormones that actually boost your mood.Smile Margie!xoxox
It may come back one day. But could you have lost the rope? I'm sorry Margie. I'd reach my hand to you.May I add you to my blog roll?
i know the feeling, i do not think i remember actual real happy either. emotions have just become too complicated. there is always shame and fear and disgust and sadness attached to the happiness now. BUTthe happiness is still there somewhere. meaning, it is actually possible to find it again. this is one thing i know for certain. it may take a long long painful time but you will somehow find it again. so do not cry too much over this, okay? it is like riding a bike (or so i'm told because i will always fall off bikes and eat it on the pavement)--it will come back someday when you are ready, so easily that you will hardly believe you ever lost it. and it will be pure and you will forget sadness as you now forget happiness. that day is coming. anyway. LOVE and LOVE and LOVE. xx x