20 January 2010


Luke's funeral was yesterday. You should have seen all the people there. So many people loved him. There were times that I couldn't do much else but sob. W held my hand, and tried to hide his own crying, I guess to stay strong. I told him he could cry in front of me.
It's finally starting to hit me that I'm never going to see him again, that he's gone forever. The shock of it all is subsiding, and is being turned into grief. They buried him today at 11:30 this morning. He's already in the ground.
I'm at school again, and everyone's being so supportive. I only know a few other people here who knew him, but I don't know how close they were to him.
My eating has been atrocious. It's all been comfort food. I'm so frustrated.


  1. I think times like these you get a free pass to eat whatever comfort food you need. :D

    i'm so sad for you but i'm glad everyone at school's being supportive and that at least a few people there knew him. at least you don't have to carry this completely by yourself if you don't want to.

    i am thinking of you often xoxo x

  2. I agree with Anise, don't worry about food right now. You can think of that later but you just need to cry and cry and get your grief out as much as you can. I was in love with this guy that died a few years ago and I didn't let it out and I got really depressed and I didn't know why and then it just exploded one day. Be gentle with yourself and it's great your friends are being so supportive. Thinking of you *hugs*

  3. Funerals suck major biting ass.

    I love you much, Margie.