16 July 2010

six months

its been six months today since luke died
and i still miss him as badly as i did the second i found out that he was gone
i can still hear his voice like i only saw him yesterday
things have been so weird without him, everything feels so empty
and i keep waiting for him to come back, like he's only on vacation
everyone says that things like this happen for a reason
i havent been able to find one yet
i miss him and i love him still
6 11 91 - 1 16 10


  1. Sweetheart that is so sad and touching,
    I don't know what to type, but I wanted you to know that one day you will be able to think about him and smile, not because he is gone, but because he was and you knew him and that was brilliant. I am not talking from my experiences, but my cousin who lost her boyfriend to cancer. She cried and she cried and she said she would never love again. But the pain slowly stopped and she did love again. Not ignoring the former boyfriend, but finding him in everyday life, for a few moments and talking.

    Of course that wont work for everyone, but it worked for her

    We want to see you smile, lovely x

  2. I'm so sorry << I always find it weird when people say that, but I don't know what else to say. I hate how such terrible things happen, and to good people like you, you don't deserve loss or to feel that way.

    I like to think everything happens for a reason, not because it's fair or because I understand it, just because it's the only way to explain some of the terrible things that happen. Sometimes you just need some kind of explanation to cling on to. Stupid, I know.

    I hope you feel better soon my dear,

    Bali x

  3. theres nothing i could say to make you feel better, but in time things will get better. x